2010的最后一天

这一天 对你是否有特别的意义？
你会怎样渡过？
在最后的那一分钟，你会想着什么？
你会想起谁？
在2011年的第一分钟，你是否许愿？
你有想拥有什么吗？

还是你会平静的渡过，默默地等待新的开始。

新年快乐！

medical students

We are high-strung, "type A" personalities that seek perfection in ourselves and everything we do. When there is a dent in the armor we are quick to hide the flaw in any way possible, in effect hiding the "imperfection" and living in denial.

Medical school is hard. We have worked endlessly to get here and we work even more just to stay here. The list of reasons why it is so challenging is long. We stress about the current work load in the classroom or clinic, the future residency or career we have not yet obtained, and our past experiences or grades that may keep us from meeting these goals.

As if that is not enough, we have relationships to feed, family to nurture, and service or occupational responsibilities to fulfill. Mix it all together with little sleep, high expectations and the occasional public mistake and you have the perfect recipe for burnout or depression. The study authors state, "Medical students experience depression, burnout, and mental illness at a higher rate than the general population, with mental health deteriorating over the course of medical training."

Medical students are stubborn. We want to put forth the image that we can hold up the world even when everything inside is falling apart. Worry that peers, residencies or future employers will view oneself as inadequate if depressed simply compounds the problem. Rather than seek needed assistance, students will flounder alone to avoid stigmatization.

As students, we can carry a lot on our shoulders, but this does not mean we have to do it alone. Medical school is intended to be difficult, because one day we will be responsible for the health of someone else. This education is difficult and can often lead to depression among students. If you need it, take time now to heal yourself so that you can function at your optimal level later. Hands down, this is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. It is also one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. Focus on the positive and hang in there, you can do it.

from
Joshua Batt medical student
Touro University Nevada College of Osteopathic Medicine,Las Vegas,Nevada

very true...:)

2010 最悲哀的事情

是不是不说，不闻不问 就意味着 风平浪静？

今天看到血淋淋的现实世界
因为维护自己种族
而自欺欺人
大家在拍手欢呼欢笑 为了掩盖事实
漠视人才

这样只能显示你们懦弱
懦弱背后
实在为我们亲爱 的友族感到悲哀。

2010结尾篇（2）-medicine

2010最尽责的老师-Olga Victorovna

不知不觉在她言教的一年半
成长了不少
她让我跌进谷底
过后在扶你一把
让我感受到苦尽甘来！

2010最莫名其妙的老师-Alfarova
但她还是那么可爱....

2010大手术

虽然病人只是一只猫，但它还是个生命！
对于初次动刀的经验，体验到当surgeon的经验！

2010 最惊心动魄的场面
在实习的期间，被医生临时叫去procedure room,目睹了这病人的伤口。
在搞不清楚情况下，还被医生当场考了考:" what you can see from this wound?"...
"erhhh..tendons are tearing off and pulsation of artery..."吓呆了。
"Now,hold the hand,and nurse,assist him and clean the wound"
医生检查了伤口，就把这"烂摊子"交给我和护士！
花了不少时间 洗了伤口，打了止痛药和ATT,包扎好了就送病人去surgical 了。
虽然不是什么大case，不过还蛮有成就感的!haha

还留了照片作纪念！不好意思。。。


2010- 至今还是搞不懂的东西

与CT scan 永远沟通不了，smiling face,crying face...congestion?...一头雾水。
那天，还记得又被医生打枪。
唉，就有待努力吧！

即使还有很多不足的地方，希望在来临的2011勤能补拙！加油。

续。

圣诞节

圣诞节
你有想收到什么礼物吗？

我？
一个祝福圣诞节快乐
就够了
:)

2010结尾篇（1）

1. 2010 一大遗憾！

这一年去了paris,竟然没有去到巴黎铁塔，（我懂那是必去的地方，因为在去的路途上遇到贼啊！！我旅行费全泡汤了！），但总算吸取教训！这遗憾就有待以后补偿吧！我会再来的！

2.2010 最满足的经验

去了Belgium，
吃了上等的巧克力！也来到了童话世界！

3.2010 万难见真情
她们
在路途上成了我的“大一窿”
感恩感恩啊！！


4.2010 见识最多的---Amsterdam
内容不用多说 了！！哈哈！

medicine

a HO is asked to do a presentation about acute MI on 8.30am,every HOs in the department and me were there for the specialist.

Hmm,not a good start,she couldn't even draw a nice ECG waves.
and she forgot some leads correspond to the site of infaction.
she started murmuring,was looking for help from her colleagues..

the specialist started yawning...
" semua doctor baru inilah yg dari oversea,mesti pergi travel sana sini masa holiday,tak study baik-baik.i wonder how you all pass your exam?"specialist started rumbling.
"which uni are you from?"(what?!is she talking to me...")....
"Russia,doctor..."everyone was waiting my answer.
after that,the hall back to quiet again..
am i making the atmostphere worse...

"now you can see how your senior perform here ahh,makesure you study properly before you'll meet me next time"....is she warning me?....
i just smiled and nodded my head and better kept quiet..

i wanted to run away,but i know i have to face it.

this event happened in the last few months.

this is still a shock for me,i didn't believe those bad comments about russian graduates

Until i saw a scene like that...

Here we used to say:"chill...don't worry too much"
"skip whenever you don't understand.tomorrow you won't be asked about this question...
don't simply answer,or else your marks will be spoiled...
make your teacher happy,be her favorite student...
Don't worry,seniors have notes and answer for the test..
just memorize the answer and get an excellent mark...
and continue enjoy your life here in Russia.

"we are still learning...HO is just a period of training,after that we will slowly adapt in malaysia lah!Chill man...."
"what you scare of?we can overcome russian language,the largest barrier,the biggest culture shock in life,you think you can't overcome criticism in Msia?"

if you keep telling someone like this,
don't you think you need to stop it?

冬至

12月21日 冬至的前一天 早就邀了朋友一起动手做汤圆。
也叫了异族朋友也一起搓汤圆 看到那一份凝聚力 还真不错
过去在家并没有特别向往冬至 来到russia 才倍感佳节的意义
冬至 特别乐于搓汤圆，看到汤圆浮起来 华润的感觉！
里头还 含着花生！
真想大口大口咬啊！！！
听说 冬至是冬天里最寒冷的一天
虽然温度只有2度（还不是最冷！） 但真的很暖胃！
爽！

C.Sec..

today is the second last day of obstetrics,until this time,i would say that it's not boring because it's exciting to witness how obstetricians save 2 lives at one time.today i saw another cesarean section operation.
The 42-week fetus with 4.2kg(overweight) and brow presentation,is detected having distress syndrome and severe bradycardia,termination of pregnancy has to be done as cesarean section urgently.

During the operation,everyone is overwhelmed by stressfulness seeing our lazy buddy still want to stay inside her mother's womb.our teacher was trying so hard to push her out,it can't take long time because the baby is distressed inside.

After the hard push on fundus by our great teacher,the baby is borned!How Great~:)
i love seeing the new life is born...
but if anyone asks me to become an obstetrician,hmmm....think again...

什么是最好的？

今天做了ECG presentation，本想了很多话要跟大家分享，
临场反应不来，有点顿挫，
开始时总深怕误人子弟，但过后总算让大家获益不浅，
开心。。

尽力的感觉，就是最好了。

选择

选择明明知道崎岖的路
崎岖就不走吗？
原地不动？
还是选择他人都认同的路？

但是你过得是自己的生命吗？

得到别人的认同，活在刻板印象里，你快乐吗？

有时候做自己，是需要勇气，
勇气是要有准备的 你准备好了吗？

继续奋斗。
有一天 尽管是尽头的另一端 你也会跨过去 拥有蔚蓝的天空！

obstetrics

"any one of you wants to be obstetrician?"by professor Sharkin.....
i kept quiet for few minutes.
anyone could make me love obstetrics?...
trying hard..sigh..

重新开始

重新开始
重新做自己

重新编织自己的故事